September 8, 2007 - The Plan

The Plan. Has the Lord revealed it to me? Have I found what it is He wants me to do? I have the sense that this is it, but I guess it still remains to be seen.

I submitted my resume to Ameriprise Financial in Hurst a couple of weeks ago after finding a job posting on KCBI’s website. However, I had just decided I was not going to pursue it. I was pursuing my Lord. Working to live out my purpose of knowing him better. Then they called and wanted me to come in for an interview.

So, I interviewed with the guy, Mike Lord, on Thursday. I felt like it was a pretty good interview. They even want me back in on Tuesday to interview with some of the other people I would be working with. The position seems to be a good fit so far; part time, flexibility in schedule, and close to home. But I have still had reservations.

Then I attended the Ladies Conference at church where Esther Burroughs was speaking last night and this morning. Last night she spoke on the topic of one of her books which was basically showing Christ to people in everyday life. She talked of being so full of Him that He just “splashes” out on everyone around you… especially as you are in situations with non-Christians.

I could just feel the Lord speaking to me as I listened to her. I could sense the Holy Spirit reminding me of what I sensed Him telling me a couple of weeks ago… that maybe I was supposed to work in a “non-Christian” environment to have maximum impact for Him. That perhaps this job was that opportunity that He was giving me to “splash” all over a new set of people in a different sphere of influence. And yet, I still have reservations.

I got home and began sharing some of this with Mike. I began asking a lot of questions to Mike and myself. How will it be with me working? Will I be able to keep up with the house? Will my time with the kids suffer? Will I still be able to volunteer at the school? Among others.
Mike is so encouraging. He said that our financial situation aside, even if it is a break even proposition financially, he feels like I do need to work. But, I don’t want to be so focused on getting house-work done when I’m home that my time with Sarah and Nathan suffers. We can hire a housekeeper to come a couple of times a month if I’m not able to keep up with things. So, what about volunteering at the school? Well, maybe after a while, you can switch around your schedule some every once in a while… stay later on other days to have a Friday off for a field trip, etc. Okay, well… I began to run out of questions.

So, is this it? Like I said, it still remains to be seen. I still have an interview on Tuesday (which I may need new clothes for) to meet the other guys with whom I would be working.

Lord, be very clear to me this week. Give me a clear vision of your plan where this job is concerned. If this is not where you want me, then give me a clear sign at the interview on Tuesday. If it is where you want me, then also show me that clearly. Lord, I want to follow your plan, I want to be in the very center of your will for my life. Please show me clearly what that is.